June 23, 2012
When I was feeling burnt out last year, all I wanted to do was write. Every group I had gave me an idea for a blog post, and between August of last year and January, I mostly wrote more than once a week. Alas, things have changed.
My schedule changed at the end of January, which kept me much busier than usual (in a good way) and left less time for blogging and ideas.
I became more motivated in my work after leaving one of my contracts, so I have been spending more time doing work I like, and less time thinking about liking work.
I began religiously listening to NPR in my car between groups instead of thinking about work.
I started a lifestyle change in search of balance in food consumption and exercise which left less time to blog.
I have been making more creative meals for myself and my boyfriend in an attempt to get out of my “chicken meatball and brussels sprouts” rut. This takes more time.
I began working on three fairly complicated work-related projects/proposals.
Anyway, the list goes on in terms of things that have kept me away from WordPress, but the truth is that I miss blogging and I wish I had more time to write. However – I haven’t given up! I have 6 posts that I started months ago and never finished that are waiting for edits and publication, and one that I finished earlier today that I’ll post later. I wonder though, if I will be able to get back into the swing of things in the same way as before…
Two things happened this past week that motivated me to start writing again. One, a former student of mine asked me for some advice on beginning contract work and I found that I enjoyed answering his questions quite a bit. Two, I heard a story about a young Pakistani singer, Ghazala Javed, who was shot and killed for no obvious reason. I’ll write more on both of those topics in future posts, hopefully soon, and maybe that will get the blog ball rolling once again.
My goal is to get to 100 posts by Labor Day. This is 71. Can I do it? We’ll see. In any case, thanks for reading and I’ll try to come by more often.
October 31, 2011
So, remember this post? It was my very first one, and I have written 33 posts since then (including this one). I tell my boyfriend every time I write a new post. “Hey – I just published my 11th post!” “Hey, guess what? I just wrote my 23rd blog post!” “I just finished my 33rd post!” He always has nice things to say, and seems proud (as he should, as the person who convinced me I had something to say, after all). I get so excited about each post because not only do I not normally have great follow through in my journaling (the number of one page journals I have written in my life is astonishing) but a year ago, I didn’t think I even had anything to write about.
I had been burnt out for quite some time, partially because there are aspects of my work that are frustrating and exhausting, but also because there are some changes, professionally, that needed/need to be made, and I was feeling a little lost and stuck in a rut.
The things that usually get me out of my rut are: supervising students (this only happens for six months out of the year), gardening (only possible from April to October), trying new interventions at work, going to conferences, changing my schedule around, exercising and eating healthier. Well, in July, none of those were helping (and some weren’t even possible) and I was clutching at straws. One day, however, I was driving down the highway and had a vision – the title “The Long and Winding Road” came to me, and I thought to myself, “Self – you should write a blog about all of the many aspects of your work as a music therapist, and you should have all the posts be titled after well known songs!” The rest is history…
I am always more motivated to do something if it has to do with helping someone/something else. My go-to
every day rainy day activity pre-blog was “Yelping” every restaurant and bar I ever went to in my life in order to contribute my experiences to the interwebs for the greater good. I should have known that the reason student supervision is so rewarding for me is because I can share my knowledge with people and help them learn and improve. I should have also realized that blogging would have the same effect, but I was a little slow on the uptake.
Unfortunately, my Yelping has fallen by the wayside since I began my blog, but this may be a blessing in disguise. I really can’t afford to keep up my Yelp! habit, and I would much rather share my knowledge of the work I do, than share with the entire world all of the things I’ve eaten at
Anna’s Taqueria various restaurants over the last four years (burrito pollo con un poquito arroz, frijoles negro y roja, lechuga y guacamole, y a veces uno taco al pastor). Basically, I kind of broke up with my hospitality industry critic-self and decided to put my remaining language skills to good use – professional use, that might actually give someone ideas, inspiration, information and insight. And I won’t lie, it has cured my burn out this time around.
Writing helps! Who knew? Maybe I’m able to move forward with the help of validation I give myself by talking about my work in this forum. Maybe it just feels good to send thoughts out into the world and see that people are receiving them. Maybe there’s just something to be said for expressing your thoughts on a page, editing them, re-reading them, and making sure they’re suitable for public consumption. Whatever it is, it’s working, and I’m a huge fan.
Keep reading, and comment every now and then so I know who you are!! You mysterious people have saved me from myself, so thank you!!